My friend Bill told me the following story: at one point in his life, his two daughters were both addicted to heroin and the dual addictions were destroying his family. As Bill walked into his house all hell was breaking loose. His oldest daughter disconnected from everyone and stared out the window. In her typical frantic anxiety; Bill’s younger daughter paced around the living room. His wife clung to thread of sanity, but she still found the energy to spray everyone with her rage. The entire house was filled with hostility, stress and despair.
Bill wanted to flee the scene, but instead he clearly heard the Lord say to him, “Go into the living room, gently hug your daughters and your wife and tell them that they are deeply loved.” So he did it. With quiet authority he walked up to each family member, tenderly touched them as he looked them in the eye and said, “I love you and it will be alright.”
According to Bill all the negativity, rage and anxiety left the room. It was like they were breathing in pollution, but then someone extracted all of the poison from the air. They could breathe deeply again. Bill’s slowly learning to walk in that quiet, strong, deep redemptive authority and gentleness, but he hasn’t been able to duplicate anything like that scene.
I have a hunch that God likes to give us these little traces of heaven. In the midst of Bill’s broken life, God let Bill see his new, Christ-like, fully redeemed self. God provided a vision of the end goal, or as Bill calls it “previews of coming attractions.”
I used to think that these traces of heaven were just flukes, like an awful golfer bouncing his tee-shot off a tree, hitting a seagull in the head and somehow getting a hole in one. I don’t believe Bill’s experience was a fluke. Instead, I think God interrupted his life and said, “This is who you will be, Bill. You’re not there yet, but stay with me and I will change you into a strong and tender man who walks into broken situations with my love and authority.”
So I’ll keep hanging around Jesus, letting him into my broken places, trusting and finding little traces of heaven in my life too.